Its been a week ago since the last time i talk to douglas, and after i let him know whats bothering here inside of me... and its all done with a good conversation i am happy he accept it and so am i what we settle down.. its hurt me when i knew he treat me as a Friend only coz from the start he knew how much i love him.
but the good things in that we ends up as a friend and that is good...
atleast even just for friendship we have i can still communicate him and most especialy he can still see and feel my care's for him...
So far then till now we ddnt chatt yet and ddnt hear from him yet.. quit bit worried but i know his alright and busy i think...
And now 2010 is almost done~~ i just wish in this 2011 i can find the right guy for me so i can settle down...and have a happy family's...
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Christmas Eve
Christmas eve simple but nice, for 3 years me and my bestfriend angie ddn't have time to spent together on Christmas eve but this time we made it. so its wonderful, we exchange gifts and we have very nice foods on our noche buena its great!
We ddn't plan for that its just happen that both of us have vacants time....
I love my bestfriend very much!!!! she's there with me in my up and down life she never let me down ever!!! so am with her... we will be forever holding each other what ever happen....
Thats what friends are for....
Sunday, December 19, 2010
New year resolution...
''Lord i wish even just one of my wish to you will be grant i know and believe that one day it will be if its your will...
- - - -HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS- - - - - -
- I wish my work will be more good so i can support my Family and Nichole for all she need in life and more blessing this years.
- Wish to Have a good health,protection,guidance and more strength to past all the struggle and trials in life.
- To be with my daughter and parents living together so we can spent time together taking good care of are little angel Nichole.
- I wish for Nichole good health,wisdom,guidance and protection and strength while shes growing up...
- I wish that Douglas will love me the way i do, lord you know that i love him so much.. i want to be with him for all the rest of my life together with my daughter Nichole.
- I wish that my Family's will have a good health,guidance,protection and strength to past all the trials and struggle in life and long long life!!!!!!
- I wish peace on earth! no more fighting no corrupt and i wish that government will be fair for everything....
- I wish my best friend Angelyn will fine and see the right guy for her and more blessing to her and her family's.
- I wish for the World's will have more P E A C E to each and everyone of US....
- I wish that i will be more patient and more sweet and nice to everyone's around me and my life...
- - - -HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS- - - - - -
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
We are the best of friend ever!
i am glad and so thankful god gave me her to me... i love my best friend very much!
Friday, December 10, 2010
Moving on!
Moving on its the hardest and painful decision to do in life but how can i move on if i am still stuck with him for all my life... sometimes i ask this question, until when i will be like this like hoping he will love me the way i do.? because i know he would not, and that hurt me a lot knowing he would never be mine, that is my new years resolution this coming year, if this coming year and if its still the same i will give up on him anymore. i pray that god will guide me and help me to MOVE On...
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
To my dearly doug
I am so happy opposite for my last post this morning... at last Doug talk to me and explain to me everything what really happen the other night and he understand me because i am drunk that time so damn drunk... Doug is my dream boy i would not give up unless he will have girlfriend already then settle down that the time i will give up. but till now he is single and no committed to anyone i wont stop carrying and loving him that the way how much i love him...
Thank you!
I do this stupid thing to a person i do really love, i swear to god i did not mean it to say those thing.
i am trying to apologize but he wont listen, i am hoping one day he will give me time to explain it all. i feel so sad today because i know in my heart i make this person so mad at me and i can't forget my self for that..
Thank you because you still give something for Nichole and i appreciate it a lot... all you said about me its hurts me a lot but i am willing to take it all because i thing i deserve that.. all i want is please forgive me and i am not hoping we can meet again in a future but if it will happen god only knows when and where and i hope that time will come you forgive me already...
I will miss you so much and i wish you have a nice Christmas day and have a blessed new years... take care always....
i am trying to apologize but he wont listen, i am hoping one day he will give me time to explain it all. i feel so sad today because i know in my heart i make this person so mad at me and i can't forget my self for that..
Thank you because you still give something for Nichole and i appreciate it a lot... all you said about me its hurts me a lot but i am willing to take it all because i thing i deserve that.. all i want is please forgive me and i am not hoping we can meet again in a future but if it will happen god only knows when and where and i hope that time will come you forgive me already...
I will miss you so much and i wish you have a nice Christmas day and have a blessed new years... take care always....
Friday, December 3, 2010
meeting's
We have a general meeting today, how i wish it will start on time so it will finish on time to.
and im glad my best friend soon will get home for a week vacation...
and im glad my best friend soon will get home for a week vacation...
Thursday, December 2, 2010
nichole at the nursery room... may 14, 2010
Shes in the nursery while i am on the recovery room... my familys watching her...
after 2 days that the time the first time i saw her... i have CS because my doctor said shes to big...
all the pain and suffer gone when i saw her....
my dream boy :)
im just still lucky because we are very good friends... a very special friend's....
at KL malaysia
I have so much fun in Malaysia, this place i go where they do their
product...i amaze how they make the clothing and especial those antic product...
in singapore
at singapore zoo.... in this photo's the staff of the show...
a very good show and they are so friendly people.....
miss you best
My best friend went out of town shes away for 4 days... miss her so much and i hope she enjoy a lot!
love you best.......
travel and etc.
Last 2008 since i met Patrick Slesinger i start to travel in Asia. my first travel is in singapore then
KL malaysia, BKK, Singapore again...
because of him i experience to go out the phillipines and that i ddnt expected to happen to my life.
i experience to live in a big house have complete furniture and its beautiful and high quality.
because of him i learn how to swim and then learn how to dive...
he thought me to be brave and to act like im in a high class of living,
i live in that life more than 1 and half years but when i dicided to leave him because his wife found
us we have a relationship i'm back to zero back to real life i have since im child.
but im glad because of that i learn a lot and have experience in life very tough experiences.
i would not forget what happen to me in last 2 years time...
sometimes i think about him and miss him but i know i did the right thing...
and i know when i did that god guided me because when i left him my little angel came to my
LIFE...
And i am happy and i feel complete now that i have her... god has a plan for everything happen to
my life, i know and believe someone out there a guy has to be with me and little angel just need to
wait patiently because maybe its not yet the perfect time... who ever he is all i want is he will love my princes the way i do because that the only thing i wanted and of course have a good job so he can help me to provide the things of my princes need till she finish school and till she get a job...
KL malaysia, BKK, Singapore again...
because of him i experience to go out the phillipines and that i ddnt expected to happen to my life.
i experience to live in a big house have complete furniture and its beautiful and high quality.
because of him i learn how to swim and then learn how to dive...
he thought me to be brave and to act like im in a high class of living,
i live in that life more than 1 and half years but when i dicided to leave him because his wife found
us we have a relationship i'm back to zero back to real life i have since im child.
but im glad because of that i learn a lot and have experience in life very tough experiences.
i would not forget what happen to me in last 2 years time...
sometimes i think about him and miss him but i know i did the right thing...
and i know when i did that god guided me because when i left him my little angel came to my
LIFE...
And i am happy and i feel complete now that i have her... god has a plan for everything happen to
my life, i know and believe someone out there a guy has to be with me and little angel just need to
wait patiently because maybe its not yet the perfect time... who ever he is all i want is he will love my princes the way i do because that the only thing i wanted and of course have a good job so he can help me to provide the things of my princes need till she finish school and till she get a job...
bestfriend
I have a bestfriend her name is Angie, she has a good heart. shes always there for me so am i for her.
N o one cant seperate us actualy our friendship is 10 years already from now and its more getting
stronger every each day.
we survive all the trials and problem in life and i know we still survive in more years to come...
because god is there for us always he the one guiding our friendship....
i love my best friend very much...
N o one cant seperate us actualy our friendship is 10 years already from now and its more getting
stronger every each day.
we survive all the trials and problem in life and i know we still survive in more years to come...
because god is there for us always he the one guiding our friendship....
i love my best friend very much...
baby
I got pregnant last year on July and delivered last may this year.. shes a baby girl very pretty
and very sweet...about her father i dnt want tell about him here he is not deserving thou.
i take good care of her one month and half only because i need to work so i can give the things she need, and thanks god his always there for me ''god is good all the time''...
he use people to help me all the time... and now soon i will be with my daugther and i promise i
will spend all my days with her, let her feel how much i love her...
i'm so bless because god gave me her to me!!!!!!!!!!! i love my little princes very much!
and very sweet...about her father i dnt want tell about him here he is not deserving thou.
i take good care of her one month and half only because i need to work so i can give the things she need, and thanks god his always there for me ''god is good all the time''...
he use people to help me all the time... and now soon i will be with my daugther and i promise i
will spend all my days with her, let her feel how much i love her...
i'm so bless because god gave me her to me!!!!!!!!!!! i love my little princes very much!
missing someone
Way back January 2006 if im not mistaken, i met this guy in a place where i work.
his nice and hey his a good looking thou... first time i saw him i have this strange
feeling for him, untill i dicided to talk to him and it turns in a very good conversation
untill have build a strange feelings for both of us...
after a few days we build a good relationship then, his my ever first boyfreind have.
and i was thought it will stay longer i have been expected but its not, when he left to go back to
his place to work our relationship was disapear like a wind...
its hurts me a lot coz i love him so much... and even now there is no change after 4 years since we
broke up...i believe that first love never die coz that's my feelings for him... i still love him so much..
but im happy coz after thouse pain and tears i have we build good friends now a very unique frienship, and thats why i am taking good care of what we have now... im contented of what we are now. i'm just hoping he will not change coz me, im still the same woman that so in love with him like a crazy...
his nice and hey his a good looking thou... first time i saw him i have this strange
feeling for him, untill i dicided to talk to him and it turns in a very good conversation
untill have build a strange feelings for both of us...
after a few days we build a good relationship then, his my ever first boyfreind have.
and i was thought it will stay longer i have been expected but its not, when he left to go back to
his place to work our relationship was disapear like a wind...
its hurts me a lot coz i love him so much... and even now there is no change after 4 years since we
broke up...i believe that first love never die coz that's my feelings for him... i still love him so much..
but im happy coz after thouse pain and tears i have we build good friends now a very unique frienship, and thats why i am taking good care of what we have now... im contented of what we are now. i'm just hoping he will not change coz me, im still the same woman that so in love with him like a crazy...
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